Sunday, January 14, 2007
5:05 PM
Its been one and a half months since i started on my job and work has been so-so. Not fantastic but not bad either. At least the people there are quite nice, so at the moment, i don't have much complaints.
Admittedly, most of my jobscope doesn't really require a graduate to accomplish, and i do quite a lot of so called "sai gang". But seriously, who doesn't have to do all these when they just start out in the society? I can only say that those who get jobs that maximise their potentials and fully utilise whatever they've learnt in school the moment they start working are lucky asses, coz it's something that's almost impossible. So instead of complaining, i'd rather save my breath and complete whatever i've been assigned to do even if it may be some shitty stuff that my manager pushed on to me coz she doesn't want to do it herself.
If possible, i'm going to use this year to hopefully gain some experience and bid for some time to decide on my next step. Honestly, i can't deny that this is a perfect job if i were thinking of furthering my studies coz other than the occasional weekend events or rare OT, i seldom have to work outside my official working hours. But in terms of prospects, its almost equal to zero. Of coz there are other factors that would affect my decision, so i really have to weigh my options carefully before make my decision on what to do next.
Alright, enough about work.
Sometimes i wonder how much i truly know myself. Do i really know myself as well as i think? I've always prided myself on being a person who knows my faults very well even if i hadn't been able to correct these personality flaws. But there have been circumstances when i've been forced to step back and look at what i've done and think otherwise coz some of the things that i do at times are even beyond my comprehension. And when i stop to reflect after that, i regret my actions and reactions most of the time. But as the saying goes, "What's done cannot be undone" and there's no point crying over split milk, so i can't really reverse whatever damage that has been done. What i can do instead, would be to learn from these mistakes and try not to repeat them again. I know its easier said than done, and i don't want to promise anything coz i don't want to make empty promises but i'll just try my best in keeping to this resolution.
Compared to many others, i think that i'm really fortunate coz i haven't met much adversities in my life so far. Whatever i've been through is only an anthill compared to what many of my close ones or friends of theirs have experienced. I don't know whether i'm lucky or unlucky in this sense but i'm quite sure most people will think that its e former coz if given a choice, they would much rather have a smooth-sailing life, a happy family, caring friends and a loving better half. I guess that's true in a certain sense but somehow, leading an over-protected life also encumbers one from growing up, which may be a reason why i'm so childish and immature in handling a lot of stuff at times. Its about time i grow up and learn to treasure the wonderful things i have in life before i lose them.
- i make my life perfect -
